"The Rule of God"
"The Identity of Jesus Christ"
"The Fellowship of the Spirit"
"Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert." Isaiah 43:19
“The aim of the artist ought to be to bring into the world objects which do not already exist there...objects which are especially worthy of love.”
William Gass
May we never underestimate the un-named in that which we give and receive
There is a slight brown like singed eyebrows declaring that sunshine occurred.
A slight change in elevation over Grandma Dudie’s body.
What remains…
In her ark.chest.coffin
The full height of myself between the corpse and the surface
The earth pushed up and made a slight crack in the corner of the marble
Beloved Wife and Mother
Esther M. Roswall
1918 1982
The Salvation Army crest sits between the years looking like a sun spreading her skirt out into a curtsy with an obnoxious crown
That old Victorian symbol standing between Esther’s birth and death where her life should be…
The shadows once belonging to her daughter and granddaughter float ethereally to the right as to not disturb the Sun in her pompous glory
Yet darkening grandpa’s bloodiron gravemarker
Mauritz W. Roswall
U.S. Army
World War II
July 13, 1911 June 19, 1995
Exact dates with a simple cross raised between
Stark. Metallic. Cold.
Ingeting.
Floating above the soft cheek the heavy hand,
Returning into adomah
Powerless to comfort, empowered to shush….
What great push edged Agda off of the great appendage of Northern Europe: The sterile soil yielding only bland potatoes nudging her to risk crossing the sea frĂĄn
Sverige to Chicago, to Minnesota to the
logging/fishing outpost trying to be a city called Seattle
Ever the outsider
Marrying Gus nee coalmines now a halibutman
Leaving the ministry
birthing 5
Losing golden curled Ruthie
Losing Sverige
Gaining America?
Your baby girl
Nursed you
Until…
Esther overcoming the darkness with voice, trumpet, accordion, guitar
American yet trapped between
Mama’s passing, you were finally able to live into your vocation of ministry
Mauritz duly impressed, loving you until
Condemning you to a separate, arctic bed
Serve him, everything must be snäll as he gives
your love rations to the church secretary
Little Lulu
“little adult”
Your best friend
your baby girl
Its poured into
Her
muted…
Carol with horn and piano and choir and horned rimmed cat eye glasses
Enduring the robotic sterility of what makes Sweden famous
No sibling, alone, move from place to place to place
Seattle, Olympia, Portland, Coos Bay, Eureka
Will your only friend be Mama?
What you want to be when you grow up is the same as your Mama and mormor…
Given up to marry a hick logger
Move to a trailer park and
daddy puts his hat on and leaves
Manic Depressive
Rage carries on hidden behind flimsy walls
A comfort found….
Evangeline brings good news to take your pain away.
Gritted teeth and a slap, followed by tight maternal embrace and dubbed
“a fragile little flower”
I am your little comfort
Forever Exodus, getting the hell out of Forks
Thirsting for something else than these generations
of starved women feeding on their young
Mothering their mother
Babying their husband
Drains from above into …
And I
have
no…
A gift descending
A tongue
Of fire
Resting as a hand of blessing
May gasoline like oil pour inconveniently
Over you
And light the match
Explode into fire
May your skin melt off like Hiroshima
This cursèd blessing will swallow us into something…
This glorious agony!
Because we know that you’ve gotta lose your life to gain it.
We are the music-makers,
And we are the dreamers of dreams,
Wandering by lone sea-breakers,
And sitting by desolate streams.
World-losers and world-forsakers,
Upon whom the pale moon gleams;
Yet we are the movers and shakers,
Of the world forever, it seems.
from "Ode" by
Arthur O'Shaughnessy
Love bade me welcome: yet my soul drew back,
Guilty of dust and sin.
But quick-eyed Love, observing me grow slack
From my first enter in.
Drew nearer to me, sweetly questioning,
If I lacked anything.
A guest, I answered, worthy to be here:
Love said, You shall be (s)he.
I the unkind, ungrateful? Ah my dear,
I cannot look on thee.
Love took my hand, and smiling did reply,
Who made the eyes but I?
Truth Lord, but I have marred them: let my shame
Go where it doth deserve.
And know you not, says Love, who bore the blame?
My dear, then I will serve.
You must sit down, says Love, and taste my meat:
So I did sit and eat.
Shaw continues, "God made us human beings in his image; we participate in creative intelligence, giftedness, originality. We each have the faculty of imagination deep within us, waiting, like a seed, to be watered and fertilized. Imagination gives us pictures by which to see things the way they can be, or the way they are, underneath. The prairie woman, hemmed into her sod house with her small children by months of sub-zero cold and snow, used her imagination redemptively. Around the traditional quilt patterns--double stars, wedding rings--her imagination pieced in the exuberant flowers and leaves that redeemed the long winter, that brought her soul back to life. She created beauty and richness from the ordinary stuff, even the castoffs, of her life." (90)
There is an exhibit at John Knox Presbyterian Church in Burien entitled "Seeing the Savior". This exhibit is sponsored by Christians in the Visual Arts [CIVA]. It sounds like the art is well worth the trip to Normandy Road! Artists include Edward Knippers, John August Swanson and Joan Bohlig, so it should be a very high quality and interesting show.
I just heard about an exhibit down at the Tacoma Art Museum: "Illuminating the Word: The Saint John's Bible".

"Art is the cry of distress uttered by those who experience at firsthand the fate of mankind. Who are not reconciled to it, but come to grips with it. Who do not apathetically wait upon the motor called ‘hidden forces’, but hurl themselves in among the moving wheels, to understand how it all works. Who do not turn their eyes away, to shield themselves from emotions, but open them wide, so as to tackle what must be tackled. Who do, however, often close their eyes, in order to perceive things incommunicable by the senses, to envision within themselves the process that only seems to be the world outside. The world revolves within—inside them: what bursts out is merely the echo—the work of art!"
"there has never been a time when the arts approached each other more nearly than they do today…In each manifestation is the seed of a striving towards the abstract, the non-material. Consciously or unconsciously [the arts] are obeying Socrates’ command—Know thyself. Consciously or unconsciously artists are studying and proving their material, setting in the balance the spiritual value of those elements…A painter, who finds no satisfaction in mere representation, however artistic, in his longing to express his inner life, cannot but envy the ease with which music, the most non-material of the arts today, achieves this end."
"we ourselves are also among those realities or entities we require to know, that we ourselves are the thing-in-itself. Consequently, a way from within stands open to us to that real inner nature of things to which we cannot penetrate from without. It is, so to speak, a subterranean passage, a secret alliance, which, as if by treachery, places us all at once in the fortress that could not be taken by attack from without."
My note on Schopenhauer: Schopenhauer's claim is that knowledge of the self leads to knowledge of the “real inner nature of things” because the only source of immediate knowledge available to us is the self. This is a curving in toward the self to gain knowledge about the inner essence of the world, and God (if there is a transcendent category); that knowledge of the self actually provides a secret passage into the deeper mysteries of the world—the self, in Schopenhauer's model and Schoenberg's after him, is incurvatus in se.